Sara El-Sayeh

Blaqube

Hi!

I've been contemplating my creative self as part of the creative living spring challenge and I wanted to share some of my reflections on the kind of creative I think I am..

In fact, I'm not sure if I think myself a creator at all -- I'm more of a procrastinator, a “procrasteator” if you may.

The moment I sit down to write, I remember the work I’ve been putting off, the projects, the dishes, the laundry..

I think of all the things that would not qualify me as a creator and then try to prove to myself that I’m worthy of the title – or not.

Most of the time, something flows when I least expect it more times than I would like to admit. If there's a creative pattern that I exhibit, it's that.

I have a million recordings of writing workshops that I need to catch up on, a dozen drafts of manifestoes (and a rantifesto), intentions and claims of my artist title. I often introduce myself as a closeted writer, but I did get paid for writing a few times already, I think two or three to be very specific.

I think as a creator, I wait for reactions to test for whether my art has touched someone, made them think or dare I say, changed their lives? Has writing ever changed your life? Has your writing ever changed your life?

I know mine has saved my life.

There were times when it was so hard to imagine my life going on, and to be honest, there was no way it could have gone on down that trajectory so I wrote to imagine otherwise.

As Promised, I have more links from my close biz friends today!

• First up is the Soulpreneur Corner from Julia Kyambi, a medical doctor turned intuitive guide (!! I know, right?)
• For the creative with too many tabs running in their mind, Kevin Chung writes the Standout Reinventions Substack - Kevin helps creatives, especially authors, organize their ideas, find direction, and get shit done.
• ​Meg Kissak has the Rebel Archetype Assessment free for you to get, you can also tune in to Meg's Podcast, if you haven't already: The Daily Pep! offers "rebel rousing encouragement and reminders to keep going"
• ​Kristi Amdahl is a wayfinder master coach whoworks with people who're "fed up with sacrificing themselves to the unholy gods of capitalism" My kind of people, too!! Kristi wrote the Toolkit for Navigating Capitalism & Other Fuckery​
• I took Arienne Sloan's class on listening and now there's We are a Murmuration and I find it really exciting! Adrienne explores listening, field recording, and transmission arts as pathways to deeper presence and relation with the more-than-human world.
• ​Andie offers 10 ways to market your healing business for when time and money are scarce -- you can get it here
• ​Cassie Connor is a trauma therapist weaving psychotherapy and yoga therapy to support holistic healing AND ALSO a rug artist, and a poet and has a How to Heal from Burnout & Trauma Guide on Notion and I really like it!

That's all I have for today! Let me know how you find these links!

Sara